Monday, November 24, 2008
Bgr? uhm...
Few months back, I was very sad for a few days. I searched high and low for my letters but I couldn't find them. Those were the most wonderful memories I had in primary school. I thought that my maid or mum had thrown it away last year. So heart breaking.
For the past few days, I had to pack my room. It's pretty hard because I don't know what I want to keep and what I want to throw. My mum said "You sure you want to throw them, you'll need them if you Fail o levels". What the... After she said that I decided to keep all my notes and just throw away the test papers and worksheets. zzz... hope that whatever she says won't come true. God Bless me!
Anyway as I was packing, Mummy found this pack of stuffs and ask me, "are these your letters?" WHEE!! She found them! Hahas! I'm gonna get a box and repack all these lovely letters.
Decided to take out a few to read. After reading from "Miss M" and "Miss C", I realise that I was a different person in the past. Felt sad for a while after reading those letters. Sad because I saw some ugly side of myself. Sad because I realise it brought back lots of memories. Wonderful memories that I don't wish to recall now. There's so much I wanna say to someone. Actually, it no longer matter because I've already said the most important part. I just wonder why will happen to us 5 years from now...
To some of you there. (you will know who you are, use your sixth sense). I'm sorry for treating you the way I did. I'm sorry for hurting you. I know you have been very nice to me, very considerate, very sweet and always do things to make me smile. I'm really thankful, touched and appreciate every single thing that you do. However, I cannot reciprocate that feeling. I can't be going out with someone I like/love when I'm actually loving someone else more. A little secret here. I've had very wonderful memories with somebody before (looong time ago) and I'll only accept another when I love that person more than that somebody. This is one of the reasons why I can't accept you, which I'd never told anyone of you guys. I'm sorry...
Anyway there's another reason, I can't commit. I'm only sixteen, don't wanna get tied down. Single is fun!(: Well at least I can openly go "hey, see that guy there, ain he cute ^^v" The thought of committing is just so tiring. Well perhaps when I meet my Mr Right, I may? Okay I must! Was just telling my friends and my mum. I must get married no matter what because I love kids and I wanna have my own kids. =D
PS: Adoption is out. I want my OWN kids. Pre marital is OUT! So to have kids, I must get married. When will I meet the guy who will make me Mrs____? Hmm... Let's see what happens Ten Years from now (:
Labels: Single life, Sorry
2:25 AM
♥
Monday, November 24, 2008
Bgr? uhm...
Few months back, I was very sad for a few days. I searched high and low for my letters but I couldn't find them. Those were the most wonderful memories I had in primary school. I thought that my maid or mum had thrown it away last year. So heart breaking.
For the past few days, I had to pack my room. It's pretty hard because I don't know what I want to keep and what I want to throw. My mum said "You sure you want to throw them, you'll need them if you Fail o levels". What the... After she said that I decided to keep all my notes and just throw away the test papers and worksheets. zzz... hope that whatever she says won't come true. God Bless me!
Anyway as I was packing, Mummy found this pack of stuffs and ask me, "are these your letters?" WHEE!! She found them! Hahas! I'm gonna get a box and repack all these lovely letters.
Decided to take out a few to read. After reading from "Miss M" and "Miss C", I realise that I was a different person in the past. Felt sad for a while after reading those letters. Sad because I saw some ugly side of myself. Sad because I realise it brought back lots of memories. Wonderful memories that I don't wish to recall now. There's so much I wanna say to someone. Actually, it no longer matter because I've already said the most important part. I just wonder why will happen to us 5 years from now...
To some of you there. (you will know who you are, use your sixth sense). I'm sorry for treating you the way I did. I'm sorry for hurting you. I know you have been very nice to me, very considerate, very sweet and always do things to make me smile. I'm really thankful, touched and appreciate every single thing that you do. However, I cannot reciprocate that feeling. I can't be going out with someone I like/love when I'm actually loving someone else more. A little secret here. I've had very wonderful memories with somebody before (looong time ago) and I'll only accept another when I love that person more than that somebody. This is one of the reasons why I can't accept you, which I'd never told anyone of you guys. I'm sorry...
Anyway there's another reason, I can't commit. I'm only sixteen, don't wanna get tied down. Single is fun!(: Well at least I can openly go "hey, see that guy there, ain he cute ^^v" The thought of committing is just so tiring. Well perhaps when I meet my Mr Right, I may? Okay I must! Was just telling my friends and my mum. I must get married no matter what because I love kids and I wanna have my own kids. =D
PS: Adoption is out. I want my OWN kids. Pre marital is OUT! So to have kids, I must get married. When will I meet the guy who will make me Mrs____? Hmm... Let's see what happens Ten Years from now (:
Labels: Single life, Sorry
2:25 AM
♥